Monday, May 18, 2009

NY Pro Show 5th Place


Dear Friends and Fans,

WOW! What a year it's been so far. I have been running around like crazy, way before 2009 even turned. I must say I am looking forward to a little bit of a change. You do get to the point where you just don't even want to think about your physique. Wear as many clothes as possible and just put that physique to sleep for a while. I'm not sure how others can do show after show, but my body is really asking for a break.

I've totally enjoyed my stay here in the Big Apple. My friends KC and Charlie put Beth and I up in their manhattan condo, so we were totally hooked up. Just blocks from Broadway, we walked the streets and checked out shops. It was great just to feed off the energy of all the people. My prep and everything went as planned. I really couldn't have done anything different to help with my placing. I've looked at the pictures, I'm not sure of my opinion yet. I have been saying this same thing since 2004, but I have to still bring up my legs. I have made incredible changes, but still, I need more fullness. So my focus will be on my legs as usual for the off season. i will have to ponder that a bit to see how I want to go about it. The big thing is to get this done without hurting my legs and back. I'm feeling the need for a trip to Venice Beach to se the "Trainer of Champions" Charles Glass.

My weight when I left for the show was 138, one of my heaviest showings. The show was run very well. Vinny and Mike, who have taken over Stone Productions since the passing of Steve Stone, were all over it. To tell you the truth, better than ever. My only complaint was that it was sooo hot in the pump up room. I though I was going to over heat at the night show. I was kinda scared. The taxi driver would not turn the air on in the cab, and the sun was just beaming in. I was melting away like a candle. I got to the pump up room and it had been closed off all day between shows. I grabbed tazzie and asked her to sit with me because I was hot and might pass out. I searched and found one little spot that had some ciruulation and we chilled there for a bit. She and everyone else was burning up too. I finally got control over it and was fine.. but that is a scary feeling. You never want to be the one the ambulance is coming for, plus lose your placing for a no show.

I'm fine with my placing. I always use the results of my shows for direction in my life. When my focus should be re directed... bodybuilding lets me know that. If I should continue to finish off the year with bodybuilding, then I would be in the top 3 and olympia bound, but instead, it's time to redirect my training, get the practice to another level and get more involved with Species Nutrition. I hope to be on RX muscle radio show soon, and a couple other things lingering out there that I haven't had a chance to respond to.

I put this front lat shot up to compare to the last show. I wanted to put up the rear dbl bi shot so you can see the much improved ham detail, but still how my legs seemed to deflate in a matter of hours...?????>>>... You should be able to see stage shots on my web site shortly. I think I looked great. I got beat by names and home town faces... LOL... I'm honored however to have been given a scooby snack and placed in the top 5 in front of some great veteran bodybuilders, so I'm not complaining. I like NY and will be back.

Sunday, I shot all day withAwefilms...lol... you know we do good stuff together, so watchout for our vampire clip!! Great pix from behind the scenes soon to come.

Thank you KC and Charlie for the great place and hospitality, and of course Beth... for your help and friendship.; Thank you to my sponsor www.speciesnutrition.com and Pro Tan for helping my physique shine.

Your Pro,
Dr. Dena

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Vibrant Life!!!


Dear Friends and Fans


I had Maryjane's memorial on Sunday. I had 40 people show up. It was AMAZING!!! I put on a huge spread and planned to let off 41 balloons @ 5:30... our favorivte time of day. I asked everyone to bring a plant for maryjane. After my eulogy, I let off a white balloon for peace and all her friends, who had green balloons for new life, followed. I must say that I'm the luckiest person in the world!!! Yes, in all of this, I've found happiness. I have the most amazing friends, neighbors, fans..etc. I never knew that I had so many wonderful people in my life. Maryjane helped me open my eyes to the love around me... and it feels so good. I get these tears running down my face reading her guest book and what everyone had to say to her. She helped my attract all of these wonderful people. She was so loved!!! Maryjane has shown me how to love, accept help from others, and most importantly... how to be loved. I finally realized that is why she had to leave. It was time to feel the love around me. I guess you never see it until a time of need. The individuals who have been there for be is over coming. I feel so fortunate to have this in my life, and to have gotten to experience all of these feelings and emotions, but not be over whelmed. It was such a satisfying feeling to feel but not react... if that makes sense. The main thing is that I didn't want to let my emotions control me... I just felt them openly.. and it didn't hurt. It brought tears of joy. I almost felt guilty! Connie came over yesterday and planted most of my yard. I sat in tears of joy last night as I stared out the back porch at the wonderful life that was out there...MARYJANE'S life! It's so wonderful to see, feel and be life. " Friends are flowers in the garden of life." Thank you all for everything you do for me! Special thank you to Brian, Patty and Connie for holding my hand in my time of need. My TREE is STRONG!!!!


Training is great. I look good, can't wait to get to NY and get this over with...LOL... in a positive way!! Summer is almost here!!! Beer n Burgers...LOL oh and Patty's Pool!!!!

I will be putting on a performance @ my local watering hole..Carmody's Bar and Eatery Saturday night. It is for a charity called Places for Peoples. 8:00 PM May 9th.

Carmody's: 49 Clarkson Road. Elliseville, MO

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena