Memorial Weekend

Dear Fans,

I thought I would sit down and write to you.. I guess since I feel kinda bad and you guy's are the one's who care to listen. I feel very run down tonight. It was a busy day today ending with a heavy patient load. I see patients from 4 to 9 on Thursdays, but I train myself and a couple others during the day hours. People often ask how I do it all.. work and train. See I don't have a job you can just show up to.. I have to have a clear mind and be focused on the individuals issue at hand. I have to listen, be open minded and then come back with a clear explanation to why they feel this way, use models and text books to show them what their particular issue is and then excert energy stretching and manipulating their muscles. It is very difficult!! Each year it gets harder to maintain running a practice and getting ready for a show. I started feeling the fatigue come on last week. I thought 5 weeks out was a bit early to feel that way, but Dave had just increased my cardio to 100 mins a day. It seems to get difficult turning the pages in my mind. I really have to concentrate on searching for the things I want to say. My thoughts are very slow.. and are just going to get slower. Just think... this is the best I'll probably feel til it's over... each day does get worse... you just get use to the crappy feeling and then it gets crappier!! lol. I don't feel real talkative when I'm getting close to a show.. your lucky to get a YEAH out of me. Sometimes that's all I can say " YEAH". Look good, feel like shit, right on track! Maryjane can't even finish our walks. She gets pooped out at about 35 mins. I have to drop her off and keep going. I'm going to have to watch her because it's not like her, but it's been warm here.

It was my good friends ( Jillian) b-day over the weekend. Her man (JJ) took us out on the town. He is awesome, a New Yorker so of course does it all first class. We went out to dinner and then to the club. He had us set up in the VIP just like in the songs..lol. We danced all night and then spent the next day at the pool chillin. We can say that was my Memorial Day excitement because I have to spend this weekend getting caught up on my life. So far this week, I've been able to get my billing and data entry caught up now all I have to do is.. work on about 70 patient files.. yeah fun.. clean my windows and screens finish up a bit of laundry and train and I have scheduled a couple massages to pick up some extra cash. My productivity goes down when I get close to the show. I can't do it all. I go crazy. I wonder how much longer I will be able to do both. I want you all to know that my fans, friends and patients are like big arrows pointing me in the right direction. When I wonder why I'm doing all of this a fan tells me how I inspire them, or a patient tells me they wouldn't be where they are if it wasn't for me and then at that moment I get chills down my spine and think " Now that is why I do this". I thank you for your support and encouragement.

My conditioning seems to be the best yet. I'm looking more like what I did at the 2005 Nationals but better. I'm holding at about 140 right now. I don't want to get there too fast. I'm thinking that we will kill me the last 2 weeks, so I make weight. It's only like 5-7 lbs, but the last ones never seem to be real easy. OK tired. Gotta get to bed. I'll put up a pix of us at the club. JJ in the middle of course with me, Cassie, and Jillian.

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena