Compelled By My CHAZOWN

Dear Friends and Fans,

Gosh! I don't even know where to start... I have been missing in action huh? LOL. Well ACTION is just what I've been up to. I had to go back and read my past blogs this year and how I explain my struggle to continue my success and maturation as a person. I have sooo many great things happening around me. My " Library of Life", is what I called it in one of my blogs. I have books of ideas all organized and waiting to be noticed. How do I get noticed ALONE? As you find success, it becomes difficult to find MORE successful one's to imitate, learn and grow from. I have accepted the fact that I cannot make ALL my dreams come true without others. OOOOO those OTHERS! OUCH!!... that requires TRUST and to me equates DISAPPOINTMENT. I had to sit back and think about all my VISIONS and discover their common PURPOSE. I'm working that everyday as well as PRIORITIZING. The UNCERTAINTY is STIMULATING my every synapses, hence, COMPELLED by my CHAZOWN. I have started my book. I have the title, cover, and PAGES of thoughts that have forever been chattering and debating in my mind. I hope soon to have these organized into an outline and off I go!! Much of my writing energy and thought has been going towards THE BOOK. I have decided to jump up my websites! I will probably merge to one. I'm going to bite the bullet and drop a couple (more) grand into someone who can make something happen. I need running backs not scorekeepers!

So, if that is not time consuming enough, I am still running a business, doctoring and mentoring others daily and making a difference in others lives! GOD! It's wonderful to breathe the air!! I have had some fans speak of a RUMOR that I have retired from competition... LIVING is a competition, and my physique is MY TEMPEL! I can PROMISE you this... I will always be on a STAGE... maybe not FLEXING my muscles... but ALWAYS flexing my HEART! I have applied for the Arnold Classic. The competitor list should be out a week before Xmas. My physique is its best yet!! I'm still Olympic Lifting... 270 lb deadlift, 210lb clean and jerk...

I appreciate your support. Know that, " I am doing Great Work".

Happy Thanksgiving! XO

"Disturb Us"

When we are too well pleased with ourselves

When our dreams have come true because we have dreamed too little

When we arrive safely because we sailed too close to the shore

Face your FEARS!!! They aren't as scary as you think!!

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

Free Falling

Dear Friends and Fans,



If you have been reading my blog, you know that I'm going through a personal growth spurt. I really do enjoy these. They are scary and painful, but I enjoy the feeling because I understand why it is there and from this point on hope to not feel it but be able to empathize with others. But... I learn from this, so I can direct others. To be a leader, you've had to WALK in those SHOES! So, " give it to me"!



I started healing others with my hands and energy @ the age of 22. Dr. Frederick Freed, DC hired me as his office as a back office assistant. I was so excited! I remember rolling around in my yard with excitement. My chance at a real job. I worked with him for 7 years while I worked on my AA and BS. I always knew I was placed here to help others. I told my mother, at a young age, I was going to be a doctor and bodybuilder... LOL. She loved the doctor part and eventually respected and admired the bodybuilder, because she knows me. Well in these early years of life, I discovered something very quickly. I discovered that by the time people got old ( 45-60)...LOL... remember I'm 22 at this time... they were very unsatisfied with life. I found a common denominator here. It included the following: Spouse, children and job. I decided way before this moment that I was not going to get married or have children. I was fortunate to have experienced and judged that at a young age. So, the job? I would have control of, BUT I would become an employer. Whoa! To me... that is a major commitment I will stand by. In my opinion, an employer is responsible for more than 1/2 of an individuals happiness and that is IMPORTANT!



So, I'm in my early 20's and discovering all these issues "Adults" are having. How can this be eased, or yet, prevented? One thing I knew for sure is that, I didn't want to wake up at the age of 45 and wonder "Who am I" and "What have I done with my life". I correlated this with individuals who got married early in life and became a wife and mother before they became a whole person. The children hopefully fly the nest and you look in the mirror and wonder " who are you"?



I came up with my own theory here on how to chronologically mature, and have been living it. Your teens are out of control emotions are flying, fitting in, and being accepted... Yuck! Your 20's... you couldn't pay me with hind site to relive! Who am I. What am I suppose to do? Your 30's... now you're talking. I think it was about the age of 32 that I caught a glimpse of someone in the mirror. Not sure who it is, but I see it's reflection, briefly, but it has me curious. It was 35 when I started finding myself starting back in the mirror trying to figure out what is in those green eyes. I think there is something in there trying to talk to me. It was my person and soul wanting to connect, but could only connect with the introduction of the individual. I started to feel the strength I got out of the relationship between those two indentities discovering each other as a child, an adult, a bodybuilder, a doctor, and yet a person.



I have been so looking forward to my 40's... which is 5.5 months away. I have always pictured this as a time, if matured chronically correct, is filled with self understanding and love, and an establish profession with endless happiness. I'm here feeling pressed for time and have saved the best for last. I'm being slapped across the face time and time again with the one thing I have saved for last. I see it though... and kinda like the challenge of over coming it.



As far as my physique and training. It is all off the hook. Bodybuilding has taught me a way to live my life. Thank god that stuck forever because at times that is my only unconditional love.



LEADERSHIP:



To have courage, to live positively in the optimism and to believe that the worthy, the good and the decent will prevail is the great human obligation and constitutes that rare quality known as LEADERSHIP.

I'm in a state of falling. My arms are open and chest high... frightening but free, as I approach the next decade of my life.

Your Pro,
Dr.Dena

Library Of Life

Dear Friends and Fans,

I've been over here just amazed at how the pages of life start forming your own personal biography. As I get older and more wise, my chapters start to develop. In my quest of self understanding and completeness, I've discovered another part of myself... My thinking process. I get questions all the time on how I handle everything I do. Kris, my assistant, actually helped me with this just by having to now communicate with someone what is on my mind. I have been so busy for the past 7 years that I have organized a growing library in my mind. I told Kris that I expect her to read my mind....LOL... It shouldn't be to difficult because I think aloud.

People always tell me to slow down and smell the coffee. I wrote in a blog some time ago stating that successful people don't sit around at the beginnings to smell coffee? Coffee is a luxury after the work! I have really been thinking of this... my daily thought process. Today... in my today, I'm remembering yesterday to improve tomorrow. I am a person that wears many hats and these hats are novels in my Library Of Life with pages and pages waiting for my experiences. I discovered all of this when I found my self answering questions and ideas Kris had. For example... bought that book but haven't opened it... which means it is a thought in my mind but lower on to do list... dog eared that page... a thought that I have developed some formula for but moderately low on to do list... on that page... working on that as we speak... starting that chapter... action in motion.

http://www.westerfieldhc.com/ is up but not developed. I'll keep up posted on that site or check up on it for yourself. You know what two of the best feelings are? Knowing you make things happen and appreciation for priceless time. We are forever changing... ride the wave... if you fear change, you can only tread water... CATCH A WAVE DUDE!

My Olympic training is off the chain. I'm having a great time and my physique is just stellar. You can see the videos I have on the beginnings of my lifts... I'm getting better. I have such respect for this sport. I preach body mechanics and posture all day long and practice it in my daily life... in Olympic lifting, it's all balancing your center of gravity, strenght, technique and flexibility. What I feel most fortunate about is that I can work with someone who is so experienced himself with the lifts; he is a wonderful coach, and in my state of excellence... it's hard to find someone to respect and take guidance from AND make more improvements than expected. Thank you Mr. Justin Thacker. Check this link out. This is how the lifts are and how my work outs go. The athletes in the gyms here are executing the moves I do in training. It gives me goose bumps to watch.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-y0Gx0sG434&NR=1&feature=fvwp

" You Make Choices, And Your Choices Make You"

PS. I'll be www.KFNS.com or 590 am The Fan this Sunday @2:30

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

Metamorphosing

Dear Friends and Fans,

It's amazing how you can wake up one day and have a totally different perspective on things. I'm beginning to think this is called maturing, but I'm not sure yet...LOL. My goals and focus is so different now than it use to be. The past couple of years I've been trying to figure out how to bring all of my talents into 1. I plan on doing that via Westerfield Health Center, Inc. I'm trying to figure out how to get the Westerfield Health Center, Inc. site up and operating with purpose. I've been branching out of my comfort zone of the gym and reaching out to the community more. I definitely have to gingerly test the waters. How do I do this with out being the big dog scaring all the birds off??? My whole goal has been to attract individuals with my physique, but learning how to use it in the correct manner is being implemented at this moment.

I've had a couple of busy weeks and weekends. Logan Chiropractic College, http://www.logan.edu/ , had their 75th anniversary homecoming 2 weeks ago, and I attended the weekends events and seminars. It was great to be back... I have a new assistant. her name is Kris. She has been a great help and is going to help make this metamorphosis possible. She was at the Logan Homecoming with me. I wanted to get her exposed to my profession. It is a big responsibility of mind to make sure I educate her properly on what we are doing. It is a big task. It's not like I have office time to talk to her about what Chiropractic is about, so this was a great time for her to get her feet wet. It was kinda funny... in one of the seminars, we were watching a digital image of the foot in motion, and Kris got pale and cold and said " OMG that grosses me out!" I though nothing of it until it happened again a couple days later...LOL. On break, I asked her what it was that made her feel sick. The fact that the neck is cut open and you can see all the tissues and blood? No, she says, it's the BONES! I said you work for a bone doctor and bones make you want to pass out???..LOL! We haven't had any issues... I should go set my spine next to her desk and see what she does...LOL..

My training is off the hook! I'm strong, hard , full, thick. The Olympic is helping me in so many ways. It's getting rid of all the cricks!!! I'm now banging out all the over head moves. i hope to get some video of this soon.

Hope you all are listening to the Fit Bods Show http://www.kfns.com/ Sundays 2-3. I'm on every other Sunday. I have notes in the Westerfield Health Center portion of the site.

It's off the chain hot hot hot in the STL. Thank God it only last for a couples months. AHHHH Fall will be here soon.

This is a pix of my back last week and me with Dr.'s Liz and George Goodman President of Logan College.

Your Pro,

Dr.Dena

Cyclone

Dear Friends and Fans,

OMG! Yes, it's a blog. When I disappear for a bit there is always good reason. I enjoy writing in my blog. I like to have time to think and write about true events of my life. I never just want to hurry up and write whatever. I have so many areas of focus in my life that take a lot of my time, without those areas, I wouldn't have anything to write to you about.

Cyclone huh?? Well, a cyclone blows through and rustles everything up, but itself is a very organized system. I must admit that every year gets more challenging, but in a good way. You know there is a happily ever after behind the bodybuilding curtain and that curtain surrounds a beautiful ballroom full of life accomplishments, individuals I've touched and and people who have always believed in me.

My training and physique is off the hook. I've been working with an Olympic lifter, and his technique is just what I've needed. I'm just piling on the clay!!! It's amazing how much my physique can change without much change in my body weight. I train on Mon/Thurs with Olympic trainer, Sat I train at home with my friend Patty, and with X Rams player, Rik Wilson, on Sun. I'm continuing to learn how to feed my muscles. the main thing for me is to keep full with the carbs in addition to my species Isolyze, carbolyze and Mac oil. I decided not to do the Tampa show. I weighted out the possibilities of me qualifying for the Ms.O ( top 3) and decided that expanding on my key growth time right now is more important. I'm counting on Stryker having the Phoenix show in Feb. It was a great show for me last year although I didn't qualify (Placed 5th), I stood on stage with 4 of the best in the world, and the show was very well ran!!! Plus AZ is just beautiful. AZ would definitely be on my list if I would ever consider leaving Missouri and the STL....NOT!!!!...LOL

I have finally started the organization in my office and have a new assistant starting this week Tuesday. I had a new front desk built this weekend for her, and we are both excited to continue the success of Westerfield Health Center and my Life Style Management program. I've been getting out in the community more to reach out and and make others aware of me and Westerfield Health Center. I'm actually leaving the house after this to attend the Masters Olympics. My training partner, Rik, has a client competing. It's an opportunity for me to see how my bulletin board physique works. Jack( jacked up Divas) and Ann (IFBB Figure Pro) Titone have started a radio show here Fan Radio 590am. It is on Sundays 2-3pm CST. Fit Bodz fitness talk. I am on the show every other Sunday @ 2:40pm talking about sports related issues. The lines are open for questions live. http://www.kfns.com/ listener line 314-969-0590. I was on last Sunday, so I will be on next Sunday June, 06 @ 2:40, but listen to it to day too and see what you think.

The computer that had the FTP program to get info to Colette is down. I have to figure how to get it up and which computer to use. I'm not a huge computer person, so I do need to find help and time to mess with it. Good news though is I should have it done by the end of weekend, and I'm expanding the web site with lectures, videos and health topics making Westerfield Health Center portion more informative. I hope with Kris in the office, she can help with my video editing and galleries. There is light at the end...!

My dog HALO is still my dream. She is just beautiful, confident, proud, kind and loving, a pretty girl with a tom boy heart...LOL reminds me of some1 I know!

I thank all of you that do continue to support me at my highs and lows. I plan to soon make everything worth it! Enjoy the summer!

" A Fit Person has control of their life and a positive mental attitude" work on being fit and everything else just falls into place. It starts with YOU!!!!

Your Pro, Dr Dena

I'm Stratifying

Dear Friends and Fans,

Well, my 13Th placing at the Ms. International was not an upset to me. I actually learned a lot and got a whole different perspective of my physique. I couldn't have done anything better. I made great improvements to my legs and came in fuller and harder... what more could I ask for. In my mind, I'm already #1. To hold down the life I have, and still make improvements to my physique and be able to bring it in show shape to the highest level show in the sport...! I ask and expect nothing more. The show was wonderful as usual. The stage was just awesome this year! It was great back stage just being a team. We all are friends and support each other and realize that we are all here to put on a performance. I got a chance to get to know Zoa Lindsey over the past 2 months. She was in Phoenix too. She is really down to earth. She and her husband, Joseph, helped me get around the shows and were there to support in anyway. Thank you and I appreciate that. I got to know Jeannie P better too. What fun it is to get together with your bodybuilding pals and just be people. We don't sit around and have meat head conversations all the time. Jeannie and Zoa both talked with me about my diet and really helped me stay full and even better for the Ms. International. Hey Jeannie, thanks for helping me with the night show.

I really had to sit back and think about what my physique needs and if I'm willing to put in what it is going to take. Well as usual... legs and still what I call " stuffing in the pillows". I've realize now I need to call that stuffing DENSITY! I put the comparison up of me and Dayana. She is top in the world... her physique shows that. I'm not sure if my physique will even be able to carry that or achieve it. I'm really not sure if that is what I want out of my physique. I do have other purposes for my physique that doesn't require that. I love the shape of my physique when I stand alone and in real life... there are no comparisons . I definitely need to think outside the box for a bit. I ate more getting ready for theses past 2 shows than I do off season. I have to start eating to grow. I plan to still train with Rik Wilson ( X Blues hockey player) and to work on that thickness I hunted down an old patient and associate of mine, power lifter Justin Thacker, " Thacker". http://www.labgym.com/ . I sent him pictures of my physique next to other women and he pointed out just the things I was thinking I needed. We will start with our thickening workout "power lifting style" next week. I plan to spend 2 days in the gym just chiseling out my arms, shoulders, calfs and abs. The goal of course is to get better not injured that's why you go to people who specialize in what you are doing! I'm excited to get started.

I'm going to do all of this and continue to grow the practice, everything is just going great! The weather is sunny and 70. WOW... It couldn't get any better.

I'm going to hold off on the NY York show to make improvements. I'll be spending some time in Florida in July! Tampa here I come again!

Special thank you to my posse,

Ron and Leigh
Connie
Beth and Milton
Big Brian

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

5th Place Phoenix Pro!

Dear Friends and Fans,

I was happy with my placing @ the Phoenix Show. It kinda stinks that they aren't able to qualify 4Th and 5Th for the Olympia since 2 of the girls were already qualified, but "oh well" my day will come to stand on the O stage again. StrykerX really did a great job with the show, and I would encourage anyone to compete in his shows. He is working on the Arizona Grand Prix that will be a couple weeks before the Olympia and there will be women's bodybuilding. He is really trying to pull the sport out, and I thank him for that and his hard work over the weekend. It is appreciated.

Of course, I come to a full office of patients which is a great thing but on the other hand I'm running around like a crazy woman living out of a suitcase...LOL. It usually takes me a couple to get totally out of my suitcase after a show, but now, I just leave it out with alot of the things still in it to fill it up and leave again for the Arnold Classic. I'm running some pretty busy days in the office this week and working on bringing my physique back together. I think this is the only time I've hit shows this close, so it's something different and not sure what to expect. I came home with like 9 days to prepare and with a busy work schedule leaves me doing things like writing my blog @ 12:15am while on the treadmill...LOL. Really! I have totally learned to multitask everywhere. I will audit my patients accounts tomorrow am during carido.

I'm working on filling out and staying lean. I do small pump up workouts and cardio everyday and concentrate mainly on the glute ham tie in. I'm back up to 145. I was about 140 on stage. I'm really looking forward to another Arnold Classic. It's really alot of fun. I'm finished by Friday with competing, so after that it lots of work and a little play. I have a couple of shoots and interviews planned, and I hope to have HBO by my side filming my story. No matter what it is going to be a great weekend. I'm hoping for a top 10 placing here. I placed 9th here last year, but the line up is a bit more challenging and leaving me to battle it out with again Veteran's. I try not to sweat the small stuff. I'm there, have supporters and friends and time off work. LET'S PLAY!!!

The computer I use to FTP died yesterday, so @ the moment getting things to the site aren't easy. I'm sorry. I am working on it; it's on the list of many things to do in the countdown.

I'm pleased with my look here in the pix I chose, but of course can always be better. Let's see if I can pull it a little better. Keep on pumpin me up!!!!

Your Pro,

Dr.Dena

Chock-Full-of-Nuts

Dear Friends and Fans,

Man it is cold here in the STL. It makes it hard to even want to leave the house, but it's kinda fun. It is really beautiful to see all the snow; it's mesmerizing. halo just loves to jump around in the snow. She has no chill factor...LOL.

It's 1 wk from the Phoenix show. I'm sure Stryker, the promoter of the show, is elated to have a show packed with quality. I hope to be in the top 5 @ this show. I'll be standing on stage with a few who are top 3 in the world and this could be the only opportunity I have to be compared to girls of this quality. Although I compete with them in the Arnold and Olympia... I'm not compared with them because I've placed just in or out of the top 10. The top 1 thru 6 are usually compared to each other. I've been in what they call the "second call out". I will see a few of these girls again at the Arnold Classic march 5Th, so it will be nice to see where I'm placed now compared to then.

I've been extremely busy. You maybe able to see when I started writing this blog and now just got a second to finish it up. I have a lot of good things going. I have implemented change into my office. It's hard enough to face change let alone encourage it to work. I've held everything together thus far. I have been low key on the stress for the most part although I'm seeing more patients and sticking to the organization I've developed for the practice. It's made it easier on my mind during my training and has helped me not feel overwhelmed. It never fails, however, to not be doing enough. It's been my experience that at least one close person in my life has to feel left out or neglected by me during my prep. I'm skating along patting myself on the back for the way I've held it together to find out that I'm not giving enough of myself. I'm not yelling and screaming at others, I'm not extremely uptight, I'm positive and positive for others, I'm able to open my mind and heart for my patients...BUT I guess I have a problem giving myself emotionally to the one's who need me. HUMMMMM! Let's see... are these people sleep deprived? Are they waking at the crack of dawn to exercise? Are they running a business all day and spend their evenings healing others? Are they preparing for the biggest showing of their career? NO!... but all they need is like 5-10 minutes of my emotionally. I'm sorry... A successful person can't possibly succeed on emotionally. I'm a goal driven person which means I'm always working at something. I work hard now so I can hopefully make my older years more comfortable than what I see the elderly dealing with now that scares the crap out of me. What do I do... face my fears and try to avoid rotting in a bed without the proper care...LOL to put it lightly. So, the fact that I can't give into my emotions right now has been causing a bit of turmoil in my mind this weekend. It makes me feel like a bad friend and person, but what more can I do? Give into emotion and fail! The worst part about it that the only choice I have at the moment is to say " I'm sorry I can't do it all" and let it by the waist side, and it's not that I don't care because I do and it hurts me. I often get back from shows and feel like I blew off everyone and wonder if I'll still have my friends...LOL. I have a plan in life and only I can make it happen! I need wind in my sails, my support groups, this makes it easier but often I guess you gotta drop the dingy and start paddling and Cross your fingers that the Coast Guard comes by and gives you a lift and builds your strength by telling you how amazing it was that you paddled that far by yourself!

On a lighter note... I look my best yet. I woke at a full 149. The only stress at the moment is finishing my posing routine. It's been driving me crazy listening over and over again. I finally have to be like TURN IT OFF!!!!! AHHHHHH.

I will try to get some pix or video done before I leave on thurs but can't promise anything. I have a busy week. I'm slammed in the office Mon and Tues, have to pack and think of my food to bring, and finish up a couple other things. I will have my camera with me so I hope to get some pix up. If I'm able to , it would be here on the blog because Colette is doing the show too so I'm sure she won't be up to doing any of my updates...LOL.

I appreciate all of your unconditional support and encouragement. It really does mean everything!

" A workout is a wise use of time and an investment in excellence. It is a way of preparing for life's challenge and proving to yourself that you have what it takes to do what is necessary"

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

Dark and Sassy!

Dear Friends and Fans,

Can any of you tell why this is Dark and Sassy? Well, I colored my hair dark. I have never had dark hair. I'm from Florida, so my hair was always light. I started highlighting my hair some years ago and i eventually became a real blonde...LOL. I really like the change. It still looks blonde in this picture but we are having to work with it a bit because i was so blonde before. I decided to do this because I had a couple of friends commenting on how blonde my hair was. Now to me, I look at that as if there is something not right. i feel everything should blend. if someone notices something SPECIFIC like make up, nail color, hair color than it isn't blending right. These things should accentuate what you already have not draw attention away. Does any of that make sense? I also had a friend, who also competes, pull out the fact that my hair contrasted the background while on stage. I started looking at the pictures and found my self distracted by the hair. Here i am... Dark and Sassy. I love it!!

My prep is coming along nicely. I sent my contract in today for the Phoenix.. So it's a GO!..LOL. I woke at 143.7 today. My 4 week out posing video should be up soon and is from this morning. I've had a very busy weekend. Jack and Ann Titone had their boot camp for " Jacked Up Divas" http://www.fitnessamerica.biz/. I helped with the bodybuilders posing and presentation. We had a decent turn out. Especially with the fitness and figure. Jack really ran a good camp. All of you out there needing direction you should check it out. I also did an interview with them 2 weeks ago for the talk show " Fit Talk" http://www.fitnessamerica.biz/ .

Halo is still a dream. She is 32 lbs and just beautiful When people look at her that is what they always say... I'm a proud momma.

My plan the next couple weeks is to just keep my muscles stimulated and bring the cardio in a bit. I'm really trying to hold on to my fullness this year. I have a plan!

The business is great! I'm building a new front desk and some assistance... the organization continues!

" A workout is a personal triumph over laziness and procrastination. It is a badge of a WINNER... the mark of an organized, goal orientated person who has taken charge of their DESTINY"

Thank you for your support!

Your pro,

Dr. Dena

It's Going To Be A Great Year!

Dear Friends and Fans,

I hope you all had lots of fun ringing in the New Year. We're in the first week, so off we go! I'm sure most of you have picked a couple of things you would like to accomplish this year. I've filled my plate up with 3-4 shows this year and plan to get further organization within the business. I hope to place in the top 3 in Phoenix and/or NY, so I can get back on the Olympia stage. I'm thrilled to have another invite to the Ms. International. I plan to continue to bring in an improved physique. My legs have once again managed to grab some more detail and size to the lateral quad and the ham/glute tie in. I'm not really running around though going crazy about the pressures of the shows to come. With all the priorities I have, I will stop and say " how many weeks til the show"? All I can do is my best, it's a great thing this is my lifestyle then it doesn't really seem like it's anything different. I'm back on morning cardio and started my mandatory rounds this week. I took some video of it for the 2010 progress gallery that should be up soon.

I'm weighing 147.8 today @ 7weeks. I'm pretty happy with my look thus far. I hope I can continue to remain relaxed and just have fun with it. I try not to get too wrapped up into the things I have no control over and concentrate on the things I can control.

I'll tell you what. It is just plain cold!!!! STL is suppose to really down low this coming weekend. It really sucks having a puppy in this weather. She wants to take her time on walks, of course she is nice and warm under her thick coat...me on the other hand... is wearing the Michelin Man coat. Halo is doing wonderful though. She is a good puppy. I have a trainer coming over this week to work with us on somethings and give her fun challenges.

Thank you all for your support. Please continue to help me shine. XO

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

Merry Christmas!!!!

Dear Friends and Fans,

YES!!! I made it...LOL. I wanted to get my blog up in enough time to say that. I've been running around taking care of end year stuff, and preparing for the holidays. I plan to lay low here at the house. I thought we would have a white Christmas, but it's a very wet Christmas here in the STL. I'd prefer the snow, but it's all good. It's just nice to have an excuse to do only 500 things a day instead of 1000, at least for the weekend. I made all my baked things last Sunday and gave then out to my friends. I'm about cookied out. tomorrow is the spiral ham, yummy sweet potato casserole.. the good kind that's gooey! LOL. I have to bake a couple of Christmas cookies tomorrow to at least fill the house with the season. Snowman sugar cookies and peanut butter ones with the kiss in the center. I hope the rain stops so the drive to see Xmas lights is nicer. I plan to end the night cozy on the couch with a Christmas movie. Now that's a HOLIDAY!

I did receive an invite to the 2010 Arnold Classic! I'm very excited to be on the Memorial Stage again! It's a tough line up for me and the possibilities of moving up from my last years placing of 9th. I hope to finish in the top 10. My ultimate goal here is to maybe in a couple years get in the top 6 at least once, but really, the challenge this year is to continue to be superwoman and do it all, help patients, run my business better every year, improve my physique every year, stay healthy AND be able to show up ready for a show. SHIT!!! my goal is to show up IMPROVED! The placing doesn't matter at a show like this. I'm there!! What more can you say? Worry about a placing? If I can see improvements myself, and realize all the things I had to take care of in addition to making physique improvements, I'll be proud.

Happy Holidays to you all!

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

In The Starting Blocks

Dear Friends and Fans,

I know it's been a bit as usual, but I Do have a good explanation... LOL. I'll start where I think I left off last with HALO. She is wonderful. She is getting big so fast. She looks like a little stuffed horsey. She loves to play and run around and when I the house she chooses to chill on the couch or in bed. She loves to snuggle... soon I'll have a pony in bed with me.

What is really driving me crazy right now and has all my mind space occupied is my business. You see, in school, they taught us how to be Chiropractors! They forgot to mention we need to run a business too! LOL. Logan College has changed that and is now offering great business classes in their curriculum, but I still have some figuring out to do. I keep complaining that I can't get any bigger without help. I keep kicking and screaming that I have the energy to See more patients but need help on the business end to make it happen. Of course, I have been complaining of this the past 5 years. I keep saying " I'm the Doctor not the Business Manager". Now a big brick just landed on my head and made me realize ,I'm both the Business Owner and Manager! AHHHH? I finally called my mentor from Florida and told him my issues. he said " it sounds like you want to move forward but don't want to do the work"! After 2 days of working that around in my mind, I figured HE'S RIGHT! In my mind, I have been thinking to better my practice I need to see more patients. I now understand that the way to build my practice is to step outside the box I know and leap into that business box I fear. I keep telling myself that I don't have the mind time, patience, energy or $ hours to waste on business management. Well with that in mind, It will never grow beyond what it is now. HUMMM? Is this what everyone has been telling me all these years...LOL? I have built this practice from scratch right out of school not knowing anything about how to start a business. I knew how to be a Chiropractor! I've decided to spend this extra " patients seeing energy" on getting to understand my taxes and electronic filling, payroll, billing, auditing accounts and utilize my Quickbooks better. Once I open my mind to understand it, I know all of this will be at the tip of a finger. It's time to OPEN UP!

With all of this being said, I plan to have the busiest bodybuilding year yet. I'm looking really close at the Phoenix Show FEB. 20Th, I sent in my application for the Arnold, guest pose APR. 25 Midwest Novice, NY Pro, Tampa and hopefully the O. OMG! What is my problem?

I'm sitting at a hard and ripped 147 and growing. I have about 10 weeks till the Phoenix Show. I'm concentrating on filling up a bit with food and really hitting the cuts of my muscles. I'm training with an X Blues Player, Rick Wilson; he is training my legs like a skater for the next couple of months. OUCH! We plan to pull out the glute/ham area with this style. I have my video guy coming to the workout next Monday, so you can see how the Pro Hockey guys DO IT! http://www.rikwilsonspowerplay.com/ . I'll be starting a gallery of my show preps soon. I look forward to all of your support. It will be a hard year... Champions never take the easy way out!

Keep pushing me to the top!

Xo

Dr. Dena

Little Miss Sicky Poo!

Dear Friends and Fans,

Well, I've had rough week. I strained my back in the gym on Monday, doing reverse hack squat. I really didn't warm up to good before, but I did go in knowing that I had been needing to be adjusted. So I guess 2 things that were my own fault. I was beginning to feel a bit run down, which is not like me, so by the time I got off work on Thursday I was exhausted. The night was pretty rough because I sweated to death all night, and had pressure in my teeth. I woke on Friday with body aches, a swollen parotid gland, red swollen gums and fever. My teeth had so much pressure that it felt like I was wearing braces again. My GP thinks it's some viral infection. I don't have a cough, runny nose or the lovely stomach stuff associated with the flu. I have highs and lows, but hope to get over this soon. I get halo on Monday and want to feel up to the 4 hour drive to get her. Needless to say I don't have much to say about my work out this week, but they had been going well.

I have figured out the camera some..LOL.. @ least I was able to get some photos off it. the one here is from 2 weeks ago. I need some sun.. but... It's fall! LOL. No really, I do plan to tan some before the Nationals.

I'm still continuing to get ahead in the office. Delegating responsibilities just leaves me to do more WORK!! Isnt that nice...LOL.. I say this just because the ways I put food on the table requires an extreme amount of labor and energy. It just goes with the territory if you want to grow as a business and your the owner. A major insurance company made some mistakes in payment in 2006-2007 , and I was notified of a group of patients I can re bill and get paid on! Yippee.. except this takes work to get the documentation together in the short time frame given. I hope to have all these files finished by next weekend and off they go before the deadline. No wonder i kept complaining to the billing company that i was working my butt off but barley making ends meet. the billing company I used just totally blew these situations off and since they were an outside company, and I had no idea about the billing, it was easy to brush under the rug with them and me not know. Thank goodness there was a class act filed against them and they had to notify me of the errors and refilling deadline. It would be great to get 2 years of income back. I have since fixed the billing problem and brought it more in house. i understand the billing more now, but still have to have someone balance my accounts for me. Julia does that for me, she has tought me the ropes of billing and handles the internal issues.

I'm hoping we may get some sun here this weekend. After I tell you how I love the weather here it rains for 10 days straight. the one good thing about having halo in the winter is that she will not need to walk a whole bunch right away, so we won't have to bring dirtiness into the house, and in time she'll be about hip height, so no more wet upper body on rainy or snowy days. Once spring comes around, I'm sure we will be on some major cardio walks.

I plan this weekend to clean and organize my bedroom and linen closets. I'm making my bedroom closet more efficient, and pitching the big king sized comforters that are hogging all the space. I need some of those big sucker bags "As Seen On TV"..LOL.. You know you suck all the air out with the vacuum.

I soon plan to be sporting a tin grin. Nov 3rd I go for a consult for braces. I had a tooth pulled in 2004 before the Nationals and it has allowed my bite to go way off and is the cause of alot mouth uncomfortableness. you can't really tell cosmetically, but when I get older I may be headed for caps and root canals...something I don't want to have to deal with. I may have told you this before, but I figured this could be my boob job..LOL... A year of pain for years of enjoyment and comfort. Sounds like a good deal huh?? Well after the way my teeth feel right now, I'm like ugh!!!

I hope you all are well. thank you so much for your support. I hope you like the new stuff on the site. We do have plans for the New Year in regards to the site, so lots to come.. new and improved.

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

Autum Is Here

Dear Friends and Fans,

I just love this fall weather. It's the seasons that's kept me here in Missouri. It's not Misery!! LOL... It's a beautiful place. this is how I always dreamed of Halloween being. In Florida, you sweat you make up off, can't wear any cool costume because it's so blazing hot, your candy even melts in your bag while your running from house to house. I'm finally in a place where I get trick or treaters. I'm usually at work though and have been getting caught empty handed for the late one's. I can be prepared and have fun with it this year. I'm even gonna carve a pumpkin this year!!!

I get Halo October 19th. Her mom and dad have been send weekly updates and pix. It's so fun and exciting planning for her. I never planned Maryjanes birth or death!!! She just happened. halo is the breed I've always wanted to raise from a puppy. She is going to be big. She is 5 weeks old a 9 lbs.. this pix is after her first bath and cut. look at that sweet face!!!! KISSES... People kinda look at me funny when I tell them I'm getting a standard poodle. I picked this breed a long time ago. They are large, protective, athletic, intelligent and have a non shedding coat. They have a lap dog personality, very clean mouths... I can't handle slobber!!! I love their stance and confidence. She won't have of those clown cuts.... she'll be cool! She is 6 weeks and 8lbs in this pix. Her breeder says there is something wrong with her left eye. Some hairs under her eye lid on the left are rubbing and causing tearing. sHE IS GOING TO THE VET THIS WEEK. I'll let ya know.

So, I'm all dressed up and no where to go with the HD camera I just purchased. Wow! All of this takes a lot of time, especially for someone who doesn't know computers and has 100 other things going on. Having enough space, getting it off the camera, editing, transferring, getting quality content when shooting. AHHHHHHH!...LOL... it's a learning process. I hope you all like what you see and can imagine what is to come. Thank you for hanging in there through some of these adjusting times. We are in the process of resizing the videos so they will be easier to open.

On Monday, I plan on changing up a few things with my training and diet. I'm going to spend the next 10 weeks with heavier weight and less reps. My physique has made a lot of changes already just doing specific training. Now, I just need a little time to pump the tires up! I'm a shredded 150 right now, so I figure that by the Nationals I'll be big, full and hard. Working on my diet, for me, is getting 4-5 whole meals in on top of the shakes. I become a lazy eater and get like 3 or 4 whole meals in and with my metabolism it's just enough. Once I start exerting more energy, I'm going to need everything those meals have to offer.

Hope you all enjoy the FALL weather as much as I do. Much love!!I've been to get trying to get this blog up since Thursday of last week...LOl.. I've been sitting here the last 45 minutes just trying to get a pix of me up here... I going back to bed... You'll have to settle for a pix of halo again.

Your Pro,

Dr. DENA

HALO!!!!

Dear friends and fans,











I hope you have enjoyed the updates to my website. I have been working hard at getting this done for my site. Colette and Per have been a great help with my site. Thank you so much. I'm pretty much sitting back and enjoying life. I'm extremely busy, but it's great pushing my business to the next level.

My training is the best its ever been. I'm just continuing to mature and it seems like every muscle is filling out. I'm not real heavy... 150-152, but I'm leaner than I've ever been off season, but full and ripped. Everything in my life is really just coming together.

So, here is the reason I titled this blog HALO! I always had in mind that my first dog would be a black standard poodle, and I'd name her Maryjane. Well, circumstances happened that a wonderful pit bull became my Maryjane. I've had a standard in mind when considering parenting again...LOL.. I had contacted a woman a couple months ago who rescued standards. She didn't have any at the time but was about to breed her own standards. I gave her my information and told myself that fate it would be if she happened to call one day... just 3 weeks ago I started talking about wanting a chocolate standard instead of black.. well the gal emailed me over the weekend telling me her babies were born.. 2 black males, and 1 chocolate female.... I wanted only a female AND.... she is chocolate!!! It's fate. I hope to finalize up some more of the details and pick her up after Thanksgiving!!! I had to think about it for a couple days and step out of the excitement of a new baby and think if I'm ready for a commitment like this?? Of course it's a bit SCARY... but that's the thrill of it. I love to face my fears and turn them into the best things in my life. I did such a good job with Maryjane.. I can't wait to perfect my leadership skills. Her name is HALO!!! XOXO Isn't she cute!!!


I have lots of stuff planned for the site. I have my own camera now and someone here taking care of the things I can't which is allowing me to interact better in all my careers. I will have work out videos, lectures, posing, strength moves... and more on the site soon. HD video, new galleries, Skype web cam chats and all the other things planned also requires more help and time... I appreciate all of your support. My website membership prices will be $12.99 starting October 1st. I hope you like all the changes..

I plan to be at the NPC Nationals this year, and I'm training and hoping for another Arnold Classic invite. Much Love...

I will be on Pro Muscle Radio with Tricky Jackson this Sunday Sept 13 5:30 pm CST.. We will be previewing the Ms. Olympia. Come listen! http://www.posedownmag.com/promuscleradio.html

Check out my forum on RX Muscle http://forums.rxmuscle.com/showthread.php?t=17648

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

Kiss To A Wonderful Life!

Dear Friends and Fans,









OMG!!! Yes it's me. I know I've been gone for...a long time. I'm sorry. I finally got tired of making promises I couldn't keep, so I decided I wasn't going to blog until I did what I said I was going to do. I have made a lot of changes. The ends are still trying to get blended together, but all I can say is that I definitely see the light and I'm sprinting that direction.









My life has TOTALLY changed since Maryjane died. I saw what she brought to me, but can also see the reason she left. I made a commitment to give her the best life I could, and I did just that... not realizing after the fact that our relationship was holding me back from growing, and that is just because I spent every second I had left on loving her. Outside my patients and close friends, I was with Maryjane. In my mind, she was all I ever needed!! WOW!! When that is taken away in a matter of seconds... I can't even explain! I can tell you that now I have opened up more and have accepted the love from my friends and loved ones. Your TRUE friends show up on Sunday, in a rain storm, to help you move.. not like that happened to me recently...but a true friend is always there to help you lug that damn mattress down the stairs!!...LOL.









My blogs in the past have talked about my organization and business goals... You no I'm not just a Bodybuilder.. LOL... It's VERY difficult being and doctor AND business person. I have been wearing the hats of too many people. July 7Th, 2009 hit my 5Th year in practice... business. I hear that if you can make it 5 years you are good to go! I can see how I'm maturing into my practice. The things I think now are nothing like what I use to think.









I feel like I am flying 5 different kites and I need to somehow tie all these ends together so it will work as one. I'm doing that at this moment. I hope you can tell by the updates I've made to my site that I'm in close contact with my team. Colette and Per are in close contact with me and we are working at making some great changes to the site. I have my own camera now and plan on doing a lot of fun stuff. I hope to soon be up on http://www.rxmuscle.com/ to answer any questions you may have.

I've been training hard in the gym. My physique is stronger and tighter than ever. I hope to be attending the Nationals this November and other thatn that.. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for another Arnold Classic invite.


In a Nut shell, I'm back in the saddle again!!!!









P.S. Special thank you to those who have supported me through everything. I do appreciate you! xo

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

Packin' Heat!!!

Dear Friends and Fans,

WOW! I've been busier than a one armed paper hanger...LOL.. Since the Ny Pro Show in May, I have been to KS City for a bodybuilding show and booth work, had wood floors laid in my house ( that leaves things in ciaos for a bit), and my mom is now in for 2 weeks... yes... 2 weeks...lol. She is having a great time and seeing why I love the STL so much. I hope to get her down to the arch tomorrow. She leaves this Sunday, and then I will have ceramic laid in my kitchen and walk out. I'm really staring to get motivated in the office. I plan to make some changes to my flow really soon. I know I always say that but it's coming. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

My training is going well. I started hitting the weights again 3 weeks ago. I'm huge!!! Lean full and heavy. I'm sitting at 159 right now. I'm getting stronger and stronger. I have been training mostly in my home gym. I've been adding some good equipment, and I just love being at my home. It's my resting place, actually its my body sculpting studio.

I'm just feeling great!! Life couldn't be better. I plan on knocking out some of those emails from my fans. I'm sorry I haven't been good about that. Everything just takes some much time. I hope you like the updates to the site. I have some fun gym stuff and lift and carries to come. Thank you for your support always! I'm LARGE and IN CHARGE...LOL.. and this pix is the heat I pack!!!

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

NY Pro Show 5th Place

Dear Friends and Fans,

WOW! What a year it's been so far. I have been running around like crazy, way before 2009 even turned. I must say I am looking forward to a little bit of a change. You do get to the point where you just don't even want to think about your physique. Wear as many clothes as possible and just put that physique to sleep for a while. I'm not sure how others can do show after show, but my body is really asking for a break.

I've totally enjoyed my stay here in the Big Apple. My friends KC and Charlie put Beth and I up in their manhattan condo, so we were totally hooked up. Just blocks from Broadway, we walked the streets and checked out shops. It was great just to feed off the energy of all the people. My prep and everything went as planned. I really couldn't have done anything different to help with my placing. I've looked at the pictures, I'm not sure of my opinion yet. I have been saying this same thing since 2004, but I have to still bring up my legs. I have made incredible changes, but still, I need more fullness. So my focus will be on my legs as usual for the off season. i will have to ponder that a bit to see how I want to go about it. The big thing is to get this done without hurting my legs and back. I'm feeling the need for a trip to Venice Beach to se the "Trainer of Champions" Charles Glass.

My weight when I left for the show was 138, one of my heaviest showings. The show was run very well. Vinny and Mike, who have taken over Stone Productions since the passing of Steve Stone, were all over it. To tell you the truth, better than ever. My only complaint was that it was sooo hot in the pump up room. I though I was going to over heat at the night show. I was kinda scared. The taxi driver would not turn the air on in the cab, and the sun was just beaming in. I was melting away like a candle. I got to the pump up room and it had been closed off all day between shows. I grabbed tazzie and asked her to sit with me because I was hot and might pass out. I searched and found one little spot that had some ciruulation and we chilled there for a bit. She and everyone else was burning up too. I finally got control over it and was fine.. but that is a scary feeling. You never want to be the one the ambulance is coming for, plus lose your placing for a no show.

I'm fine with my placing. I always use the results of my shows for direction in my life. When my focus should be re directed... bodybuilding lets me know that. If I should continue to finish off the year with bodybuilding, then I would be in the top 3 and olympia bound, but instead, it's time to redirect my training, get the practice to another level and get more involved with Species Nutrition. I hope to be on RX muscle radio show soon, and a couple other things lingering out there that I haven't had a chance to respond to.

I put this front lat shot up to compare to the last show. I wanted to put up the rear dbl bi shot so you can see the much improved ham detail, but still how my legs seemed to deflate in a matter of hours...?????>>>... You should be able to see stage shots on my web site shortly. I think I looked great. I got beat by names and home town faces... LOL... I'm honored however to have been given a scooby snack and placed in the top 5 in front of some great veteran bodybuilders, so I'm not complaining. I like NY and will be back.

Sunday, I shot all day withAwefilms...lol... you know we do good stuff together, so watchout for our vampire clip!! Great pix from behind the scenes soon to come.

Thank you KC and Charlie for the great place and hospitality, and of course Beth... for your help and friendship.; Thank you to my sponsor www.speciesnutrition.com and Pro Tan for helping my physique shine.

Your Pro,
Dr. Dena

Vibrant Life!!!

Dear Friends and Fans

I had Maryjane's memorial on Sunday. I had 40 people show up. It was AMAZING!!! I put on a huge spread and planned to let off 41 balloons @ 5:30... our favorivte time of day. I asked everyone to bring a plant for maryjane. After my eulogy, I let off a white balloon for peace and all her friends, who had green balloons for new life, followed. I must say that I'm the luckiest person in the world!!! Yes, in all of this, I've found happiness. I have the most amazing friends, neighbors, fans..etc. I never knew that I had so many wonderful people in my life. Maryjane helped me open my eyes to the love around me... and it feels so good. I get these tears running down my face reading her guest book and what everyone had to say to her. She helped my attract all of these wonderful people. She was so loved!!! Maryjane has shown me how to love, accept help from others, and most importantly... how to be loved. I finally realized that is why she had to leave. It was time to feel the love around me. I guess you never see it until a time of need. The individuals who have been there for be is over coming. I feel so fortunate to have this in my life, and to have gotten to experience all of these feelings and emotions, but not be over whelmed. It was such a satisfying feeling to feel but not react... if that makes sense. The main thing is that I didn't want to let my emotions control me... I just felt them openly.. and it didn't hurt. It brought tears of joy. I almost felt guilty! Connie came over yesterday and planted most of my yard. I sat in tears of joy last night as I stared out the back porch at the wonderful life that was out there...MARYJANE'S life! It's so wonderful to see, feel and be life. " Friends are flowers in the garden of life." Thank you all for everything you do for me! Special thank you to Brian, Patty and Connie for holding my hand in my time of need. My TREE is STRONG!!!!

Training is great. I look good, can't wait to get to NY and get this over with...LOL... in a positive way!! Summer is almost here!!! Beer n Burgers...LOL oh and Patty's Pool!!!!

I will be putting on a performance @ my local watering hole..Carmody's Bar and Eatery Saturday night. It is for a charity called Places for Peoples. 8:00 PM May 9th.

Carmody's: 49 Clarkson Road. Elliseville, MO

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena

To The Only One I've Ever Loved

Dear Friends and Fans,

It was 11:37 pm, I was going to let Maryjane out for a pottie then paint my toe nails. I was looking forward to going to bed... I had to get some rest for a busy day at the guest posing. I live on a park which is down in a valley. I opened the back door and Maryjane took off after some deer. I started yelling her name to come back.... then I heard all this ruckus. I thought Maryjane was fighting with another dog. I could hear her screaming. I had slippers on so it was difficult to get through the woods and the creek with rocks. Maryjane stopped calling out to me, but I could hear the direction it was coming from. There was a mass of bushes and trees. I couldn't get to her and it was pitch black out. I went running home to get a flash light, cussing myself the whole time because I just thought to myself last week ago to get C batteries for that flashlight under the sink. What good is it if it doesn't work right?.....My neighbors were outside thank god because I would have gone crazy banging on doors to get me a flash light. I yelled I need a flashlight Maryjane needs help. I put on my shoes and they were quickly there with 2 lights. I grabbed one and went back to where I heard Maryjane. I went up the hill and shined my light down into the mass of trees...Maryjane was stuck down there. I could tell she couldn't move from the hips down. She ran off a 15 foot cliff. The ground just ended and there were large trees all around. It was very dark and I know she couldn't see. The guys were right behind me. I told them to be careful it looks like she broke her back. I gave my one neighbor the light and said for them to get her out I was going to call my vet. I ran home and called. I got the emergency number off the machine and told them we were coming in. I ran back outside and the guys were carrying Maryjane. I asked if she could walk and they said no. I got her into the back seat and took off. They took xrays and didn't find a break, but she obviously has a very bad neurological injury. I asked if they could keep her out of pain and see if she can get some improvement. On Sunday April 26, 2009, I had to put her down. She was my first dog. It took me a long time to feel comfortable enough to get a dog. I wanted to make sure I would be able to give a dog a good life. Maryjane actually found me. I picked her up in front of a grocery store the day before I left Georgia ( life University) to come to St. Louis for Logan Chiropractic. It was a big stepping stone in my life. I was moving farther away from home, going to a new state where I know no one, have no job, and a puppy sitting next to me. I always said I wanted my first dog to be a black standard poodle, and I'd name her Maryjane. Well a different Maryjane found me, and she was a perfect dog. Everyone loved Maryjane. She was the most loving dog. people were amazed that a pit bull was so nice. They would always say"it's the way they are raised". So I guess I did a good job. She was a very happy dog. I will miss her like you will never believe. She knew me so well. It's so ironic that I was just digging through some stuff the other day and ran across some puppy pix of Maryjane. I looked and reminisced. I was noticing how she had aged. I had her 7.5 years. I had a friend ask me the other day if I've ever been in love. I said "no", I don't think so. " I don't think so"? She said. I told her I compare it to the way I feel about Maryjane. When I would think of her my stomach would get butterflies, I couldn't wait for bed or nap time. She spooned with me. She would snore so loud I would have to wear ear plugs at times...LOL.. I like to hear her sleep. She would make funny noises as she chased squirrels in her dreams. She always wanted to be right under my arm. She would always watch me get ready. Follow me from room to room. She was like a little kid in the morning. I would come down and make my coffee, and she would lay in the bed for a bit longer, and then come crawling down and get on the couch so she could be close to me. I always wondered how the throw blankets on my couches got pulled down and sometimes the pillows on are on the floor. I never saw her actually do it. Several times a day I have to put the blankets back and pick up pillows from the floor. Then one day, I finally saw her do it. It was so cute (although it pissed me off at times). She reached up and put her paw on it and pulled it down. Then she kicked off a couple pillows, but kept one for her head. Very systematically she spread out the blanket and laid down with a big sigh. I finally saw her do it. So it wasn't a ghost after all....LOL.

Needless to say, I got 2 hours of sleep. I had to be at the pre judging by 8:30 am. I packed most of my stuff up Friday night, so I wasn't in too much of a rush on Saturday. I had to totally shut off my emotions. It was difficult, but I managed. I did still have an obligation to have my booth up and to pose in the evening. I was hoping I could pull this off. I couldn't let everyone down that was expecting me to be there. I didn't want to mess up the routine or get emotional or brain dumb when in front of the mic. God took it easy on me for the rest of the weekend. Everything went well at the show. My booth was fun. My posse had a great time and help me immensely. My photographer was all over it and will have some great pix out soon. My routine was on, my impromptu speech came out smoothly and purpose full ,hopefully.

I looked better than ever. I can see the changes that I wanted to make in the 7 weeks I had. I hope the judges will also. I had a lot of compliments on my physique, and this is from local people that have seem me evolve. I appreciate you all.

2 weeks out of the NY Pro Show, I just have to bring it in a bit tighter. It seemed like I had everything down. I used http://www.speciesnutriton.com/ new aqualyze. It worked great! I stayed nice and full. It was fairly comfortable. I'm a baby with the dehydration part. I complain about that the whole time. It wasn't killing me this time though. I think it was the aqualyze. I'm gonna kill myself with fish and broccoli for the next 2 weeks. I'm going to change my workouts to 4 all body work out days. Now it's about stimulating those deep fibers to fill out the bellies and press the muscle against my skin. Lots of posing!!!!

Thank you for your support, and to all the new fans I meet over the weekend. I appreciate you all. I will have a NPC Midwest gallery in the free section of site for fans and competitors to view, and Dr. Sexy galleries. You can check out the shows website to http://www.npcmidwest.com/ .

MARYJANE May You rest In Peace. Mommy misses you already.

Your Pro,

Dr. Dena